#DAILYDRAW: The Hierophant, reversed
Upright: Religion, group identification, conformity, tradition, beliefs
Reversed: Restriction, challenging the status quo
Last week I attended a mastermind group, and after the meeting, I was invited to formally join. This mastermind group is exactly what I have been looking for. It felt right, the vibes were there, members were in varying stages of developing their business--it was going to be the guidance, inspiration, and kick in the ass I needed to build my business.
But I couldn't do it.
Sure, it was going to be a financial commitment. I could pay for it, in fact, I could make myself afford it (buh-bye lattes and shopping trips to Nordies), but I couldn't. I know that this is something I need in order to grow, but at the same time, I didn't feel ready. And let's be real--this is something you will never be ready for, until you do it.
Even this morning, I had a 45-minute call with one of the coordinators, and I still couldn't say yes. This afternoon, while driving to the gym, it dawned on me that I needed to travel, and I couldn't commit to the group. I always want everything, all at once. But if I did the mastermind, I wouldn't be able to travel. The financial investment was immense, but so was the time. Also, assuming I get the maximum benefit out of the group, I would no longer be in a position to live around the world, because I'd be too busy, building a sustainable business.
This card is essentially the mirror of my life, and a great reminder to trust my true instinct. The mastermind--it's the logical next step in my life. Living around the world? Not exactly something that someone in her 30s is "supposed" to be doing. Nope. Time and time again, family and friends ask me when I'm going to have a baby, when I'm going to get married, when I'm going to settle down. And the thing is, I don't want to do any of those things. I'm not closed off to it, but I'm just not interested. I've never been one to do things in order, to follow directions, to do whatever it is that I'm "supposed" to do. It's not that I'm rebellious, but I generally have my own way and timeline of doing things, of getting what I want.
I'm seeing this as confirmation that I'm making the right decision, after all, I'm seeing this as a reminder to trust my instinct.