#DAILYDRAW: Three of Wands, reversed
Let me preface this by saying that I'm counting this as my entry for Dec. 4, even though it's not the 4th. It's midnight, so still part of my "Sunday."
Upright: Preparation, foresight, enterprise, expansion
Reversed: Lack of foresight, delays, obstacles to long-term goals
This card might be the story of my life. In every major goal, every major project, I have had major delays. Some delays took as long as thirteen years! In retrospect, some of this stuff breaks my heart, and some of it, I still don't care that the goal has been accomplished--it wasn't for me.
And at the moment, this card is SO, SO spot on. I'm realizing that I won't be heading around the world in the spring, i'm realizing that the every little step does make a difference in bigger projects, I'm realizing that unless I go after it, it's not going to appear. I mean, a lot of this shit I already know, but knowledge and understanding are such different things.
For the last few weeks, I've felt like I've been in this state of exhaustion, stale, uninspired, definitely not motivated. And I've put so many things off, because "i'm tired." But sometimes energy comes from just doing it, even when you can't pull yourself out of bed. I'm tired of these delays in my life. I'm not on anyone's timeline, but I just over wasting my time and feeling like I'm failing. I need to stop overthinking, stop wallowing, and just fucking do.