#DAILYDRAW: Ten of Swords, reversed
Upright: Back-stabbed, defeat, crisis, betrayal, endings, loss
Reversed: Recovery, regeneration, fear of ruin, inevitable end
I need to stop being upset every time I pull an upside down card. They're not always bad!
Isn't crazy how a card can highlight so many things about you, how it can help clarify so many things, and maybe even, how it can foreshadow certain outcomes? I mean, I guess it's like seeing psychics and palm readers--they always say really general things... Although, I once had a tarot card reading that was crazy accurate and detailed, same with a few psychic readings.
Anywaaaaay, if you know me, then you know that I wasn't through a long-ish period of time where my life was trainwreck. If I were to put this in perspective, it was a shitty time, it was hard, but I wasn't a full-blown trainwreck. but I don't do perspective.
And you know, I've definitely gotten past it, but I can't let go of it. Going through that period has left me in a constant state of anxiety and fear. I'm doing great now, but I can't fathom my life falling apart again. I don't have the time, I don't have the stamina, and quite frankly, I'm too old for it.
All of the fear, paranoia, anxiety, it TOTALLY hinders me. And I need to get past it, because I know that failure and tough times are inevitable. I need to let myself live, take some risks, and and stop being so damn anxious.