I'm losing it
Apparently, this is one of those weeks where everything falls apart, and it's only Monday, and none of the planets are in retrograde.
Yesterday, two people decided that they didn't want to be my friend anymore.
Today, the agency I contract with is losing a client. A few weeks ago one client decided to pause on PR activities until the fall.
I'm supposed to be sad, angry, pissed off, freaking out.
I'll be honest, it's gonna suck to lose a chunk of money. Half my retainer. It bums me out that I won't be able to book my 4-month Spanish and Moroccan adventure. It sucks! HOWEVER, it makes space.
It makes space for new friendships and new projects. It makes space the things I really want to do. It gives me room to breathe, room to learn, and room to focus on wellness. For the past few months, actually, since late August, I've lost my rhythm to life, I've felt a bit off-kilter, and now, I have the time and mental capacity to fix it. Maybe I can even use this time to get my knee fixed!
So I don't get to go to tons of expensive dinners or buy fancy shoes anymore. I might have to stop with the $6 daily lattes and find a cheaper, sketchier parking garage. But I am going to have the time to create my dream life, I'm going to have that fire under my ass to build my empire, and I'm going to take advantage of my time in San Diego. So more time to make magic happen? YES, PLEASE.